Creativity, Insomnia, Downward spiral??

Okay. So for the past two months I've been on what I would call a manic ride. I've had ideas rushing at me so fast, it was all I could do to write one down before I missed the next one. I was also creating quite a bit more than I have in a long time. I just kind of dove right in, not planning, not really even thinking. I just wanted to create and create and create. Even as I was involved in one painting I would already be eager to start another. (ADD??) Dunno. BUT..along with this glorious burst of energy and ideas came the insomnia. Anyone who really knows me can tell you that I LOVE to sleep. Sleep is normally one my favorite things to do in the whole world. Now I find myself up at 2am and still wired for sound. When I go to bed my mind is still racing so I probably don't actually fall asleep for another 1/2 hour to an hour. Then of course I'm up with Jack usually by 7am. What's strange about this particular bout is that I'm not even really that tired. In the past when I've had insomnia I would be up most the night and exhausted come morning. This time I've actually felt like I've been getting enough sleep. I'm not complaining, just noting that it's weird.

So, that's what has been going on for the last two months. What's going on now is a bit different. My energy has slowed to almost a stop over the past 4 days. I've gotten nothing completed and really don't have the desire to. What I'm more concerned with right now is organizing. I feel and intense NEED to organize...my office...my art supplies...my closet...my life. I almost feel like I CAN'T complete any more work until I organize. I'm also extremely irritable. I have very little patience and the smallest thing is likely to set me off. I feel angry for no real reason. I also don't want to be touched physically.

Okay, so there it is. In black and white. I don't really understand it and never have. Whenever I've experienced this before it has progressed on into something entirely different. I'm not sure what it is. I'm not crazy, I'm not a psycho, I don't think I'm "mentally ill". HA! I'm sure there are a few people that would disagree with that. My whole point in documenting these episodes is to 1.) possibly gain a better understanding of myself and 2.) to determine a direct link between my... let's call them... "episodes" and my creativity. Anyway, time to make an attempt to go to bed. It's only 11pm, so wish me luck.